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Thursday, February 5, 2009

♥ It's Killing Me Inside

I wondered randomly what I would say about myself in a character meme.

Full name of Character: Cara Morgan.
Reason, meaning or purpose behind the name: Cara means friend (yeaaaaah) and Morgan means ocean.
Nickname: Calimari Rockin, That Girl.
Reason for nickname: Mrr.
Social class: Lower Middle Class.

Physical Appearance
Age: 18.
How old they appear: 18-30.
Eye Color: Brown.
Glasses or contacts? Both.
Hair color length and style: Color is auburn. Length is medium. Style is classy emo.
Weight and height: Gross and short.
Type of body (build): Marshmallow.
Skin tone and type: Tone is paleyish...yellow? There are skin types? Normal? White? Not of hispanic origin?
Shape of face: Round XD.
Distinguishing marks: Scratches from her cat, beak of a nose.
Is s/he healthy? Ish.
Do they look healthy? No.

Favorites
Favorite color: Rainbow.
Least favorite, why? None.
Music: Anberlin, rock, screamo, hard-core.
Least favorite music, why? Miley Cyrus, rap, poppyishnastical because.
Food: Sushi.
Literature: Books, romance, violence, thrillers, historical.
Expressions: Fake smile, eyetwitch, pissy.
Expletives (curse): ...
Mode of transport: Feet, car.

Personality
Are they a daredevil or cautious: Honestly, it depends on the situation.
Do they act the same alone as when with someone? No.
Habits: Faking it.
Drinks: Stuff.
How much: All the time.
Greatest Strength: Faking it.
Greatest Weakness: Arrogance, being fake, inability to understand herself.
Soft spot: Compassion.
Is their soft spot obvious, why/why not: No.
If not, how do they hide it: By being mean.
Biggest Vulnerability: Love.

Background

Hometown: Yakima
Type of childhood: Overlooked.
First Memory: A glass doorknob.
Most important child hood event that still effects him/her: Molestation.
Why? Because.
Education: Highschool.
Religion: Christianity.
Finances: Broke.
FamilyMother/Father: Keith and Doran.
Siblings, How many, relationship with each: 4. Gary, distant. Jennifer, distant. Liz, closeish. Ben, close.

Attitude
Most at ease when: Alone.
Most ill at ease when: With people.
Priorities: Being a leader for God.
Philosophies: Yeah.
How they feel about themselves: She likes herself, but she doesn't like herself. Who I am hates who I've been...in reverse.
Why? Yeah.
If granted one wish what would it be, why? To just go ahead and die so she can go to Heaven.

Traits
Optimist or pessimist? Mrr
Why? Mrr.
Introvert or extrovert? Why? Closet introvert who became an extrovert because she apparenly feeds off other people's emotions.
Talents: Lying, cheating, and backstabbign.
Extremely skilled at: Backstabbing.
Extremely unskilled at: Being loyal and reliable. Understanding herself.
Good characteristics: ...Compassion.
Character flaws: Everything else.
Mannerisms: Proper.
Peculiarities: A lot of things.
Biggest regret: Sex.
Minor regrets: Yeah.
Biggest accomplishment: Coming to God.
Minor accomplishments: Being alive.
Darkest secret: She doesn't know herself anymore.
Does anyone know? Not thus far.
How did they find out: No.

Self-perception
One word they would use to describe themselves: Boring.
One paragraph of how they would describe themselves: She doesn't have time for this crap.
What do they consider their best physical characteristic and why: Mrr.
The worst one? Why? MRR.
Are they realistic assessments? Lol.
If not, why not? Mrr.
How they think others perceive them: Boring, a waste of time, arrogant, smart.
What four things would they most like to change about themselves: Those four other than smart.
How do they relate to others: Not very well even though she can fake it pretty well.
How are they perceived by strangers: Arrogant.
Wife/husband/lover: No.
What do they dislike most about them: No.
Goals: Yeah.

Problems/Crisis
How do they react in a crisis: Depends. On one hand she could freak out. On the other hand she would probably be the calmest one.
How do they face problems: Yes.
Kind of problems they usually run into: Relationship issues, not being able to rely on God.
How they react to new problems: Mrr.
How they react to change: Depends.

General
Favorite clothing, why: Jeans and a nice shirt because.
Least favorite, why: Yeah.
Jewelry: None.
Where do they live: Here.

Yay.

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please take this feelings for her inside?
7:11 PM
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♥ i ;


    cara. dessy. that girl. eighteen. single. christian. loves God. music. anberlin. drums. people. drama. happiness. sadness. depression. writer. loves animals. aspiring thespian. aspiring editor. aspiring writer. reading. school. english. history. science. blind. loves family. loves friends. hopes to be a good wife someday. hopes to be a good mom someday. loves kids. wants kids. being random. being me. hot chocolate. in like with someone. love my cat. chill. love the puppies in my backyard. drama ministry ♥. the end. le fini. fin.
    follow me?

♥ don't want ;


    i walked the streets with you by my side
    so hard to say good-bye tonight.
    let's continue with Anberlin lyrics; Amsterdam.
    are there no shadows where you are / i can see everything as day / problems that you try to hide away / pushing me aside / (you're pushing me aside) // could the winter calm come twice / 'cause your heart seems so cold tonight / thirst for substance somehow isn't right / it's killing me inside / (it's killing you inside) / you're killing me inside // i don't wanna be where you are / i don't wanna be here even now / i don't wanna be by your side / if something isn't right / if something isn't right // this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / words have no meaning / when I've seen where you've been // this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / this is our last goodbye / this is where love ends // are you so naive to right and wrong / how could you watch innocence forgone / does what we've done ever really belong / it wasted me away / i feel so wasted away // God if you can hear me out all right / please take these feelings for her inside / my chest hurts when I breathe tonight / it's wasting me away / (you're wasting me away) / they're wasting me away // i don't wanna be where you are / i don't wanna be here even now / i don't wanna be by your side / something isn't right / something isn't right // this is our last / (this is my last) // this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / words have no meaning / when I've seen where you've been / this our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / this is our last goodbye / this is where love ends / (this is my last) // this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / words have no meaning / when I've seen where you've been / (this is our last) / this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / this is our last goodbye / this is where love ends

♥ you are;


    this layout is about being in love, being afraid, being insane. this header started out on my second livejournal, made it's way to my third livejournal and then eventually made it's way to here. every layout i do has something to do with song lyrics. the first time I used this header it was coupled with the song 2am by Alexz Johnson the second time it was coupled with the song Jasey Rae (Acoustic) by All Time Low and the third time I used this header i coupled it with the song Amsterdam by Anberlin all of these are great songs.

    this blog is about wasting time, life, God, essence, Amsterdam, dissection, mocking, everything. whatever i decide i'll put here at any given moment. anything. so far i've written in excess about my friends, God, drama, and this guy i like or don't like. in short, i'm confused and now i'm sure the rest of you are too.

♥ Good-night;