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Wednesday, February 4, 2009

♥ I Can See Everything As Day

Dissection One.

This dissection is from a few of my earlier AirieChan entries. It's probably emo. You ready? Old!Me comments in italics New!Me comments in bold.

Monday - March 21, 2005
Title: Shadow of love.

Sounds like a bad Sonic The Hedgehog fan-fiction.

~Empty life,

Thus begins the crappy emo poetry.

unforgiving torment.
We stare into the starless sky.

Man! Was I sure optimistic.

Shaking out fists and mumbling revenge,
but we will not have the opertunity to succeed.

You can tune a piano, but you can't oper tune a t! Bad joke, bad joke.

We will die before our hearts see what it truley means...
to be in the shadow of your love.~

Bravo, bravo, bravisimo! Bravo, bravo, bravisimo! But waaait, there's more!

Okay so I got written up today cause I was an ass in my math class. Go me! Other than that...really not much more to say. Yeah I know...I'm a total loser

Aw. It's no fun when old!me makes fun of myself. I was gonna say I was a loser D:.

~Airie

That was a short...uh...journal entry. Yeah. Let's do another!


Friday - March 25, 2005.
Title: TO HELL WITH YOU!

Do I sense a rant?

~Friends are friends forever,
no matter if they say,
out friendship is over!
It will begin another day!~

That sounds like something straight out of Pokemon right thar.

UNLESSSSSSSSSSSS

Wow, who knew unless had so many s's? I've been spelling it wrong my whole li--well, most of my life.

Caitlyn:

Caitlyn seems to have forgotten what she was going to say.

Don't worry about emailing me anymore. Don't want to take time away from Will and Meredith. Just forget it until you know what a REAL friendship is!

Well, I never! You know what I have to say to that? YOUR FACE. OHHHH. BURN.

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How, uh...creative, old!me.

After Reading that, I was pissed so I told her I hated her and she should go to hell.

Because that's seriously how you keep friends.

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This is Her Reply...

DUN DUN DUUUUUN.

Just so you know I will remember this for the rest of my life!

Sad thing is, she didn't.

I hate you too and I'm never going to speak to you again!

Sad thing is, she's my best friend right now.

and if your jumping up and down for joy as you read this........GOOD! I don't give a crap!

Lol, bungee jumping.

And you know what.............I finally realized I don't need you! Because after you said those incredibly hurtful things and after someone I didn't even know "IM"ed me and said "I was told to tell you thanks".......................

Caitlyn: And I will use a surplus of periods to add to my point! ............... are you intimidated yet? I bet you are!
Me: The horror! The humanity!

I also realized that you're not worth it!

Ow, you broke my heart.

You always push me aside and only want to be my friend when you need me to be your friend! I know who my true friends are and the small but sure list does NOT include you!

Oh, the pain. The humanity.

And you know what! It was your fault to begin with!

Caitlyn: YOU KILLED MUFASA!

I know you have other friends and I didn't care! It's just that once you opened up to them it
was just like every time they came around it was just like "Caitlyn who?" So you know what.
I did care about you a lot. Thought of you as a sister. But i've cried enough,

It still cracks me up that she cried over losing me as a friend. That's so retarded!

and I've been hurt enough and now I know that our friendship meant nothing to you

This reminds me of a song.

Thank you, Youtube.

and now thanks to you, it doesn't mean anything to me either. And I'm stooping to your level and saying that I hate you and that you need to got to h***

INTERNET CENSORSHIP.

but our friendship is over! FOREVER! Bye for good!

Forever in Highschool years is pretty darn short.

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After That, I didn't Reply, knowing she hated me.

Go cut yourself, emo kid.

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This is what she tried to do....

This doesn't mean that I want to be your friend but I just wanted to say that I'm sorry if I said anything mean in my last email because if it hurts you as much as you hurt me when you said those things on messenger friday then I'm sorry!

Yeaaaaaaah. When I read your hurt and insulting e-mail, I was actually happy.

I know how you feel about our friendship so I just ended it!

Sad thing is, she brought this on herself.

I don't want to be friends with someone who manipulates,lies,and takes advantage of me !

Sad thing is, I still do the same thing. And I would also like to mention here: And I don't want to be friends with someone who puts spaces before an ! and doesn't space between commas,commas,commas.

So Sorry and that's it! Bye!
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She Sooo contradicted herself millions of times in there. Idiot.

Where?

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After That, I decided it would be good to say Sorry fot hurting her too.

COWARD!

I also told her that I was find with the friendship ending...so she would feel comfortable.

IMBECILE!

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This was her Reply...

If you are the one who signed in on my messenger account and said that I hate Hot Gimmick
then QUIT!

I told her I didn't, but I so DID.

We may not be friends anymore, but that doesn't mean you have the right to sabotage my account just because you got it for me!

Change your password. Oh waaait, you don't know how! My bad.

And as I have said a million times before I DON'T CARE IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE MY FRIEND ANYMORE!

Lying is a sin.

I tried to be mature enough to apologize but as I can see you aren't mature enough to handle that!

Stop playing the way you're acting on me, seriously. You didn't have to jump down my throat for letting a friendship neither of us cared about go down the drain.

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Now tell me...Am I mature enough to handle her appology?

Considering you can't even spell apology, no.

Or is she just having loads of fun beating me up? That is stupid.

I don't recall her ever beating me up. She's not strong enough to even hold me down.

I was also NOT the one to sign into her user account and Change her name.

YOU LIIIIE.

Feels Good to update and get this allll out ^_^.

LIIIAAAAR.

~Airie.

And now, a random life tidbit to waste your time. The Will that Caitlyn mentioned, actually spread rumours about me being pregnant and said all sorts of nasty things about me behind my back. My brother told me that tonight. He also told me that he went to the Starbucks where he works and chucked a frappe at his face.

That's hilarious. My brother is so protective of me that he'd hurt anyone that ever hurt me.

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    i walked the streets with you by my side
    so hard to say good-bye tonight.
    let's continue with Anberlin lyrics; Amsterdam.
    are there no shadows where you are / i can see everything as day / problems that you try to hide away / pushing me aside / (you're pushing me aside) // could the winter calm come twice / 'cause your heart seems so cold tonight / thirst for substance somehow isn't right / it's killing me inside / (it's killing you inside) / you're killing me inside // i don't wanna be where you are / i don't wanna be here even now / i don't wanna be by your side / if something isn't right / if something isn't right // this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / words have no meaning / when I've seen where you've been // this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / this is our last goodbye / this is where love ends // are you so naive to right and wrong / how could you watch innocence forgone / does what we've done ever really belong / it wasted me away / i feel so wasted away // God if you can hear me out all right / please take these feelings for her inside / my chest hurts when I breathe tonight / it's wasting me away / (you're wasting me away) / they're wasting me away // i don't wanna be where you are / i don't wanna be here even now / i don't wanna be by your side / something isn't right / something isn't right // this is our last / (this is my last) // this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / words have no meaning / when I've seen where you've been / this our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / this is our last goodbye / this is where love ends / (this is my last) // this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / words have no meaning / when I've seen where you've been / (this is our last) / this is our last goodnight / say what you will / say all that you can / this is our last goodbye / this is where love ends

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    this layout is about being in love, being afraid, being insane. this header started out on my second livejournal, made it's way to my third livejournal and then eventually made it's way to here. every layout i do has something to do with song lyrics. the first time I used this header it was coupled with the song 2am by Alexz Johnson the second time it was coupled with the song Jasey Rae (Acoustic) by All Time Low and the third time I used this header i coupled it with the song Amsterdam by Anberlin all of these are great songs.

    this blog is about wasting time, life, God, essence, Amsterdam, dissection, mocking, everything. whatever i decide i'll put here at any given moment. anything. so far i've written in excess about my friends, God, drama, and this guy i like or don't like. in short, i'm confused and now i'm sure the rest of you are too.

♥ Good-night;